“So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them” – “Perks of being a Wallflower”
Sometime’s I wonder where I came from and where I’m going. This fall I’m going to college and it really hurts that I’ll be leaving people. I can’t believe it’s almost there.
I’m growing in God and it makes me excited, this past week I have been doing good for the most part and feel myself growing. I’m beginning to be happy all the time, be confident with myself, be confident with who I am. I look up to a few guys and I see myself start to act like them, a man. I’m taking responsibility for myself and I hope to keep strong. The one thing I need help with however is bringing people to Christ. I don’t think I have ever directly brought someone to Christ before.. I don’t think my invitations to LP or Catalyst (was Cinema) Church were ever answered. I want to be like Meredith in the fact that I want to be open with God to everyone around me and I want to show them how amazing it is. Being a guy and trying this is more difficult I think than a girl, because we’re meant to be manly and it’s hard to be manly and show love at the same time… It’s like a big swinging scale on where to balance things.
I’m doing great with reading the bible, I wish I could remember things a lot easier though, I try reading every day and I usually do, however the things I read yesterday aren’t always on the top of my mind.. Bogged down by the day to day life.
Donny and I have been working out together for the past few weeks and I’m getting stronger, We went running yesterday and then the gym and I was exhausted by the end of the night. While running I get to think a lot about God and how he formed everything, It’s a nice time to just soak in your surroundings and the people you pass.
I wonder if people read this blog anymore, I’m not sure because I just haven’t written anything in awhile. Maybe it’s because I jump around a lot.
Anyways, I’m sitting here in school. About to do some Chemistry homework, Have a great day. Keep me in your prayers with my growth of God.
Say a comment or two, let me know you’re alive.
an old myspace post i thought was interesting…. i wrote it like 2 years ago
So, I’m sitting here, listening to a Flyleaf song about God and Him always being present and It leads me to think of all the times I’ve said I was Christian but did not act like it. How many people a day do that? They go through the day and if they are asked if they are Christian say, “Yes” but you don’t live it.
What’s ever scary is that what would I do if my life was threatened and the person asked me, “are you a Christian”, and a “Yes” would get me killed? It may seem like an easy question for yourself, “Oh, of course I’d say Yes.”… But would I really? It brings on so many emotions to know that I may not say that 3 letter word. It scares me so much to know that what once was a good relationship with God is now hanging by threads due to time. What is time anyways? How was time created and under what circumstance was it made for? Why must be plan out every single moment of a day to accomplish ones goals instead of putting things into God’s hands and submitting to him perfectly to lead you in the right direction. So many questions and so little… time.
We all are going to eventually die, and when I hear someone say, “Why do you believe in God, we are all going to die someday..” It brings on such feelings like why shouldn’t I? I accepted Jesus Christ as my savior that has allowed me to know God so amazingly.. Why NOT lead a life of purity and faith-base by treating everyone like Jesus would and.. have something to LOOK forward to when you die.
What do you think? My random mummo jummbo rant has so many questions in my head. What do you think of God, and living Christian and such…
I have been on Vacation all week, and spent 6 out of 8 days at Dennis’. Wow, that’s freaking crazy.. I’m thinking Faith has a 4th child. Right?
I haven’t done anything this week but spend money. Always seems to happen when I’m not in school.
Nothing drastically has changed in my life. I’m still loving God and trying to show people Him through me, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. Hope you are doing great. Nothing interesting in this post, sorry!
