“So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them” – “Perks of being a Wallflower”
Sometime’s I wonder where I came from and where I’m going. This fall I’m going to college and it really hurts that I’ll be leaving people. I can’t believe it’s almost there.
I’m growing in God and it makes me excited, this past week I have been doing good for the most part and feel myself growing. I’m beginning to be happy all the time, be confident with myself, be confident with who I am. I look up to a few guys and I see myself start to act like them, a man. I’m taking responsibility for myself and I hope to keep strong. The one thing I need help with however is bringing people to Christ. I don’t think I have ever directly brought someone to Christ before.. I don’t think my invitations to LP or Catalyst (was Cinema) Church were ever answered. I want to be like Meredith in the fact that I want to be open with God to everyone around me and I want to show them how amazing it is. Being a guy and trying this is more difficult I think than a girl, because we’re meant to be manly and it’s hard to be manly and show love at the same time… It’s like a big swinging scale on where to balance things.
I’m doing great with reading the bible, I wish I could remember things a lot easier though, I try reading every day and I usually do, however the things I read yesterday aren’t always on the top of my mind.. Bogged down by the day to day life.
Donny and I have been working out together for the past few weeks and I’m getting stronger, We went running yesterday and then the gym and I was exhausted by the end of the night. While running I get to think a lot about God and how he formed everything, It’s a nice time to just soak in your surroundings and the people you pass.
I wonder if people read this blog anymore, I’m not sure because I just haven’t written anything in awhile. Maybe it’s because I jump around a lot.
Anyways, I’m sitting here in school. About to do some Chemistry homework, Have a great day. Keep me in your prayers with my growth of God.
Say a comment or two, let me know you’re alive.
I’m alive! haha, I didn’t know you’re taking chemistry, I hated that class in college! Good post, it sounds like things are coming together and the fact you know you wanna share Christ more is the first step, keep fighting for it!
Comment by rachellarkin — April 28, 2009 @ 2:48 PM
good stuff!
Comment by michael — April 28, 2009 @ 5:12 PM
I’m here to Cody! Keep up the good work, I’m really proud of you and Donny too about giving up WOW. I haven’t been out here in a few weeks, not really sure why, but you guys have all inspired me to post something too.
Comment by faith — April 28, 2009 @ 6:15 PM
Still reading! It’s hear you, it’s going to be so hard to leave in the fall! You should blog/write down what you take away from your reading, like you used to. That is what helps me remember. Either that, or you may want to spend more time on each passage. Maybe a whole week (or more) is what it takes to really put into effect what God is telling you to change. It’s not about breadth! Plus, God’s message for you is so important, it is worth however much time you need to really absorb it!
Comment by Sarette — April 28, 2009 @ 11:56 PM
How’s that quitting wow thing going?
Comment by rachellarkin — April 30, 2009 @ 11:40 AM
I found ya again… love reading your posts.
It all starts with doing what your doing,,, people will want what you have. We will miss you when you go to college but…. like you said only a little over an hour away.
Yay to giving up WOW…
Comment by jolittle — May 4, 2009 @ 9:12 PM